Twenty. The year you slowly let go of the grasp of childhood, and prepare to submerge yourself into the world’s grown-up complexities. When you’re too old to blame your mistakes on naïveté, but too young to blame it on alcohol. It’s a year of searching, of finding, of growing. And for me, it's going to be the year I do this.

As I blew out the candles on my birthday this year, I made one wish: that this year would be one full of happiness, adventure, and love. But I know that this won't be made possible just by wishing, but by doing. So I made a list of all the things that I want to do before I turn twenty-one, to make this year one of the good ones. The dreams on the list may be grandiose or simple, whimsical or serious. Whatever they are, they speak to my heart, bring joy to my soul, challenge my fears, and will make for a very good twentieth year.

Monday, April 19, 2010

It's in the Cards...


I didn’t wander into an incense-filled room adorned with hanging beads or suspicious paintings. I didn’t have to gaze into a crystal ball, or call upon any frightening ghosts or spirits. No candles were even ominously flickering. I didn’t seek out my psychics. Rather, they seemed to come to me. The universe was definitely trying to get my attention. In the course of three days, I had two encounters with psychics, and I think they were far better than anything I could have coughed up fifty bucks for.

My first encounter came unexpectedly, but was welcomed. I had a photoshoot for some new headshots on Friday, and my photographer just so happened to have some psychic abilities. While he didn’t really give me any guidance or help me sort out my problems (we’ll get to that), he did have some pretty interesting things to say. He could tell that my mother is outdoorsy, that my father is businessy and lawyer-like, and he said that he could see that as a child, I would go outside and stare off in a field for hours. True, true and definitely true. And apparently, the color of my aura is a deep purple, or violet color. According to the research that I have done on this, the meaning of this color is :

Relates to crown, pineal gland and nervous system. The most sensitive and wisest of colors. This is the intuitive color in the aura, and reveals psychic power of attunement with self. They’re natural performers who love being the center of attention. They have incredible emotional depth and compassion; . Ideal career paths include but are not limited to:

Political Activist

Writer

Artist

Astrologer

Actor/Actress

Singer

Producer

Personal Life Coach

Human Resources Director

Psychologist

Yoga Instructor,Teacher,Healer

They are visionary, futuristic, idealistic, artistic, magical.

(http://www.reiki-for-holistic-health.com/auracolormeanings.html)

Well alright! I’ll gladly take those attributes! (The pineal gland part does sound a bit unfavorable though....what the hecks a pineal anyway? ...don’t answer that.) And considering I really want to be an actress/psychologist/yoga instructor/writer, I’d say that’s pretty darn spot on. He said that I was deeply intuitive (hollah!) and that I have psychic abilities (matilda powers right here) and some other things about my childhood and my personality, but they weren’t too much of a shocker (i.e., I daydreamed a lot. Those of you who know me well know this is the understatement of the century.) He was so intuned with his wife that at one point had to stop and tell her to stop thinking that his belly was getting too big because it was pissing him off! (To which she responded that she was "just thinking we need to go to the gym!") It wasn’t a sit-down-with-your-palm-up experience, but it was nonetheless exciting.

My SECOND psychic experience was amazing, and really touched me emotionally. One of my best friend’s mom is psychic, and on a whim offered me some really powerful insight after I was woe-is-me-ing about my latest dramas. She had me pick out some Fairie Healing Cards to offer me wisdom and guidance.

These cards are kind of like Tarot cards, but are all positive, and more focused on healing rather than predicting. I drew four cards, and all were DIRECTLY related to everything we had been discussing. Of the four were:


(this one even kind of looks like me, I think!)

The other two were more personal, so I’ll keep those to myself. My friend’s mom then went on to explain to me how these pertain to my present situation and problems. It was eye-opening in so many ways, and let me just say that I have a LOT to work on in my emotional life. I realized that I have been extremely guarded with certain people, and that ultimately I am not protecting myself, but inhibiting myself from loving others. In other words, I can’t find and give love if I lock my heart away. She has so much wisdom and was so kind to offer some to me! Overall we talked for about an hour, and it was so spot on and emotionally revealing. It was definitely stuff I needed to hear, and was so specific to my life right now. More than anything, it held a mirror up to my face and made me realize what I need to work on to grow. It was completely amazing.

So. If you believe, or even if you have any interest in seeing a psychic, I HIGHLY recommend finding a legitimate one and perhaps gaining more insight into your life. After all, what have you got to lose? It’s just one more thing to enrich your life, to learn from, to check off the list.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Here we go...

The beginning: I can only hope that my twentieth birthday was indicative of the adventure that is to come this year. Joy filled every facet of my being from the minute the clock turned midnight until the smile on my face melted into the pillow and remnants of the day's laughter metamorphosed into sweet dreams. I celebrated on Friday, Saturday and my actual birthday, Sunday. Nothing crossed off of the list yet, but it was still a list-worthy adventure...


From dancing my heart out at my B-Themed party with my friends (i was a bollywood star)...
to soaking in the beautiful weather on a breathtaking birthday drive....
To dancing to my favorite song when the clock struck midnight...
Enjoying my day (and the weather) at my favorite place with some of my favorite people....
and FINALLY making my wish....

It was more than I could have asked for. So while I don't have the crossing off of a list item for you all, i do have a promise. On the inside of my mother's birthday card to me, she wrote: "Keep on living life to the fullest like you do." I fully intend on doing so.